...it gets you going...

Next Friday will be April, after that May, after that summer...

Looking at how close it is to the end of the semester, I am surprised, firstly it’s because  the semester is almost over and secondly, how far I have gone since the first day (of the semester.)My motivation level is still at the same level as it was; excited, ready to “rock and roll.” Not being boastful though, I just have reasons or the motivation(s) to do so. Firstly, I wanted to redeem myself, last semester I was in a class but dropped, in retrospect it was about the same time (now) when I quit. Of course, I had to take the class again; it’s ironic though how right now were on the same chapter as I was when I dropped the class. With that said, I am more confident due to the fact, I can do it!

Secondly, my scholarship, I was awarded a performance-based scholarship. Meaning in order for the awardee to claim it, he/she has to send a transcript: with 6 units minimum, gpa of 2.5 minimum. I was not able to claim, because or those requirements. Fortunately, I can still claim it. Although the scholarship is a big factor of why I am motivated to do well, it is not entirely just that. I do not get any financial help, therefore my parents pay the tuition and it is nowhere inexpensive. With the scholarship, it is as if, I do get financial aid, the money not only will support my education but also my parents, it will reduce the amount of what they will actually spend.

Lastly, my parents; I owe my life to them. I would like to (in the future) repay them through, pampering. I believe by the time I am finished with school and became a nurse ( for few years,) they will be or soon be retiring, my Dad has mentioned his plans or wishes once he’s retired; go back to the Philippines with my mother and just be on “vacation.” I would like to give them that, comfort, relaxation, happiness.  

list i have to do

must do
-call for dental check up( wisdom teeth surgery , imminent=0)
-hang out w/bffs (on spring break)
-content area project

need to do
-content area project
-make review notes for psychology exam Tue. 28
-do practice test math exam mar.30

should do
-FILE FILE FILE FILE FILE fafsa
-learn new computer
-clean counter tops

vocabulary #4

inevitable -(adj,n) the unthinkable, cannot be avoided
-" She never took it off, not even  in the classroom, and so it was inevitable that she took some teasing about it."(p.10)
- Since death is inevitable, Jo planned his funeral at 15. For instance he wants to burioed next to his grandfather and his collection of baseball caps will be sold.
- 'your logic' I learned the word from highschool, mostly discussed in the novel 'The Stranger,' and I remember the words'inevetibality of life.' Upon learning that I mostly associate the word with life because there is no exact meaning of and the definiton of 'inevitable' is cannot be avoided, unthinkable.

detrimental -( adj, n) dangerous, hazardous, harmful
- "The hippocampus is important in the formation of new long-term memories and this may have detrimental effect on learning the effectiveness of treatments for these children."
-Smoking and alcohol is detrimental to the health.
-'your logic'& 'synonym' I have always heard the phrase "smoking is dangerous to your health" recently I have been hearing "smoking is detrimental to your health" as well, so I figure theyre synonym.


eustress- (n.) 'positive' stress, giving the feeling of fullfillment
-"eustress, which results from postive vents: marriage, job promotion , having a baby..."(p.433)
- After I graduated from college and received my Bachelor's degree, all the stresses from late night studying, homework etc became eustress.
-'antonym'&'your logic' since theres stress there has to be a positive or antonym of it which is eustress and I knew the word "euphoria" means being happy so, I relate the two words which have "eu-" as prefixes which means "well" in greek.

does a goalie have a goal?

Long term goal : transfer to CSUSB to obtain Bachelor of Science in Nursing, become a registered nurse
Mid-term goal : complete the prerequisites (to achieve above)
Short-term goal: get A's this semester, so I can claim the scholarship 

March 10, 2012

Dear Grandpa,

        

It is my third semester of college; technically it’s the fifth if you count summer school and winter intersession. I have been doing great in school keeping all the A's. I do not know what I was thinking of wasting a semester of college, I regret not giving my best or just trying to say the least. As Mom might have told you and perhaps Grandma too, I had to drop the class in my first semester of college, why? Because, I thought I was too good to be in the class and "I know" of course in reality I had to drop because, I was bad at it and I don’t know. They all were a little too harsh possibly mocking me that I could not even pass a class, but what do they know, all I can respond was " I’m bad at math always have been, always will be." So in the spring, I registered for the class again to redeem myself, and I am proud that I passed it and got an A. I was surprised myself of how much I know when I put my heart into it not just the want or need to pass. I don’t know how to explain the moment; I get my quiz back and have a smile on my face. I guess it was euphoria.

          After that semester, I tried my best to get a class for the summer; they cut a lot of classes so it was difficult to take the class I want to completely concentrate on. Luckily, I was able to get the Biology class; I decided to take it over the summer because it takes commitment, effort, and your best to stay in track. I was worried that if I had taken the class in the spring, I would not have given it my best. I know, why didn’t I at least try, well I was waitlisted for that class in the spring, but I was not able to get it because there were a lot of students before me in the list. In the other hand, I was able to take it in the summer, and that is what is important.
           I am almost done, with all the pre-requisites. I am graduating soon. Though I am excited to do so, I am not content that you are not going to be able to see me Graduate college, I was disappointed enough that you were not able to see me Graduate high school either, even in pictures. I don’t even recall you saw me Graduate from 6th grade, it’s not your fault though and I am all right with that. I do believe though, that if you have waited for me (to become a nurse) you would be in better care. I know that sounds selfish and Grandma would not appreciate that were keeping you from her, but I wanted to here you say " I’m proud of you, and Grandma would have been too," although now what you would say "were proud of you, take care of your parents and siblings, we see you soon." I know, I know I should not be saying that, but its just I do miss you. They miss you too. Before I go, I promise I will continue and persevere until I reach my goal, I will write again.

Love, Quindy

to do list

Week of Mar.6-13
Must do
-finish math homework
-start psychology essay
-file fafsa

Need to
- finish hw
-file fafsa
-finish blog

Should do
- clean
- start homework due next thursday
- schedule dental check up

to do...

hire a planner

I do not really make plans except going to school and such, but I do carry a planner to remind me of due dates, home works, etc. Outside school life, I did made plans of going to dinner and watching the fireworks with my significant other last Sunday (2/20) and we did what our plan was except that we missed the fireworks, which we fortunately saw while were on the freeway (ha.) As for next week (well I always debate with myself on this) I am still deciding on when to go to math lab, do I go right after class on Tuesday or Thursday? I usually just go with Thursday because, on Tuesdays I have class in the afternoon and I sort of just want to rest and get my mind and self ready for the next class. Its just my “thing,” I think others would just choose to go on a Tuesday and get it over with but being a time freak that I am, I always have to give about two hours of getting ready it may even be paranoia. I do not know why but I have to be in school about an hour or so early before my class starts, it gives me time to review or shall I say anticipate what may occur in the class. As for adjustments, I ought to make-up a lab for (reading) since I forgot this Wednesday; I suppose I was too excited for a two-day break. To conclude, I am still working on how to plan my schedule practically, I have plan things that I have done as plan but of course some are yet to be done in time

Vocabulary #3

reticence(n)-being silent or reserved, shy
-"To an extent, I suppose, his reticence was typical of that part of Minnesota,..."
-Jane's reticence is always misunderstood, in first grade her teacher thought she was deaf because, she does not collaborate with other students.
-' your logic' in the text Elroy is described being quiet(in that particular scene); also I learned the word from highschool, my teacher gave us real life example and we had this classmate who has always been shy and reserve so, she connected 'reticent' with her name "reticent Rachel."(i ronically her name and the word starts with the same letter,r.)

vigil(n)-wakefullness in the time of normal sleeping hours
-"...to guide me across the river and to take me to the edge and to stand a kind of vigil as I chose a life for myself."
-The nun held a prayer vigil for the safety of captive soldiers in Vietnam.
-'your logic'; I am catholic and I have heard (prayer) vigils quite often especially during Lent, and when the priest or some church personnel would speak about the vigil they menton the time which is usually starts late at night and ends i nthe morning.

surreal (adj)-characteristic of surrealism,dreamlike
-"... there is always that surreal seemingness, which makes the story seem untrue,..."
-Tim Burton, is known for his gothic style and surreal characters and the world they (characters) live in.
-'synonym' in the text the narrator has been describing how he doesnt really know what hes doing or thinking, and this gave me the impression he feels as if its a "dream," and in the definition it mentions 'dream like'; and of course the sentence itsef said : "unture."

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My heart will go on...

Titanic, when I hear it I think of the film not the tragedy behind it. Though the story of Jack and Rose is a work of fiction, it is a story that has touch my heart and taught me a lesson; the ambiguity of life.

Some would say their story or their feelings was pure infatuation due to the fact they met one night and basically became in love the next day; a part of me agrees they are infatuated because they both found someone whom posses the same liking (of art) and I guess just to live life. On another note I believe that as an audience I cannot say they are infatuated or in love or just label them; I just think I cannot ever judge unless I am in that situation, though it is just merely a film about sinking of a ship that is thought unsinkable and was thrown a love story around it, it still could happen its plausible that you meet the love of your life and then he/she could be gone in a heart beat.

           The lesson I have learned, only oneself can tell what she/he can do whether its love or choices. Choices, I have choices but it is up to me whether to let life choose for me or myself (in the film Rose thought she does not have a choice due to their financial situation and being she is a woman but when she met Jack he was a wake up call to her that even she can do what she wishes.) As for life, Jack & Rose met one night, talked and fell the next day, and Rose lost Jack the next night; in a matter of 3 days or so, they found love and hope amongst each other. This showed how one could have the best day of his/her life and the worst the next day; but it is your choice what to do while you are living the best and how you will cope in the worst. In the film, Rose lived her best day well the moment she realized it will be the best day of her life and after she lost Jack she cope with it by listening to his wishes and remembering the joy he helped her recognize, she can have if she desires to. To conclude, their story let helped me understand that life is a gift and not to waste or take advantage of it while I still have it. (-jack)

"Things They Carried" vocabulary

VOCABULARY #1

muzzle (n.) - the mouth of the gun; where the bullet is released
-" They imagined the muzzle against flesh."
-The soldier attached a gun silencer to the muzzle of his gun.
-'your logic'; I knew that the mouth or nose of an animal (dog) is a muzzle



VOCABULARY # 2

stashing (v)- to hide away
-"Courage, I see to think, comes to us infinite quantities, like an inheritance, and by being frugal and stashing it away and letting it earn interest..."(pg.40)
-The drug dealer was stashing his contraband when the police barge in to his home.
-'synonym'/'your logic'; I knew that frugal means not spending which is a synonym to stash which means to hide something away.

Summa cum laude (adj)- highest distinction, honor
-" too smart, too compassionate, too everything. It couldnt happen. I was above it. I had the world dicked- Phi Beta Kappa and Summa cum laude and president of the student body and a full ride scholarship for grad studies at Harvard."(pg.41)
-Joe's perseverance paid off as he graduated Summa cum laude in college.
-'your logic & example' in the text he describes how he has a full ride scholarship and I know that fukk ride is usually given to Valedictorians (highschool); and he mentioned Harvard which is a prestigious school; and also my I remeber watching some movie awith my mother and I heard the actors say summa cum laude or it may even be magna cum laude, I asked my mother what those were and she told me theyre honors like valedictorian or salutatorian but its college level.

infantry (n.)- army, soldiers that fight on foot
-"You have to head for the the front and hook up with an infantry unit and help spill the blood."
-When Joe chose to be in an infantry even though he is clean cut boy, he preferred land over water.
-'your logic' I know theyre on land according to the narrator; and its some what personal experience, I was in my highschool's marching band and someone would post our show on youtube so I would go on it and the band's name is Nogales Noble Regiment and so when i type that and the searches comes out there would be this video that says infantry, and I knew that it synonymous with regiment because I know a regiment is somewhat has a relation with military or army.

"the things I carried,carrying,will carry"

               I carried the guilt of being a rude granddaughter; I was basically raised by my grandparents well my grandfather almost, he passed away about 7 years ago.I still remember that day, its a school day I was in the 7thgrade I woke up about to take a shower and I hear my mother sobbing perhaps, I knew. After that is a blur, I m on the school bus crying my friend next to me, without any question. I appreciated that. I got school and I walked around and around and around waiting for the class to start, then I decided to tell my friends and of course that lifted a little weight. I dont even remeber if my mother said anything when I got home that day and neither did I wanted to ask questions, all i know is that his suffering is now done and he is with my grandmother now; she waited 15 years for him.
              I still carry and always will, carry the fact I have hurt his feelings. My grandfather was very healthy man, he still rode his bike at 70+, then reality sets in; I just remmber my aunt saying he vomitted blood and I remember goin to the hospital, but I was a still a polite granddaughter when that happened. I dont remember and neither will want to, but next thing I know his speech is slurred and his feet are swollen and hes just sitting on this beige chair that has a big backrest; I honestly dont recall after I saw him like that. Rude, after church (like we have done from who knows when ) we would go to my grandparent's home and say hello,  after his stroke, we still go but as i hug my grandfather I just cannot wait to go home. Most of the time he would speak and I thought the sound of his slurred words were so horrible. There are times I wished goin to their home was not something we have been accustomed to. Everytime he spoke with his slurred words I wanted leave. I did not understand why I acted or felt that way, not until I was a sophomore in highschool and enrolled in psychology class; we had to write an essay onm how psychology has somehow help you figure with life( well it was something like that.) Thats when I realized what it was, "denial." I was denying the fact he was sick, I was denying the fact he cannot anymore ride his bike because of that stroke; the stroke took  my grandfather, the one I know.